I want to share a moment I had with the LORD this week
We’ve been very fortunate this week with a little more free time. So I’ve as best I can made the most of it.
One of the days the weather was unbelievable so i took myself out to the sun. If you know me and where I come from, sunshine isn’t big on the agenda, let’s face it there isn’t much of it in Ireland. So being blessed to be in this country at present, i took my bible and headphones and just put on worship music.
As I’m sitting listening and enjoying the presence of where I am at and worshipping the LORD, I song comes on I don’t recognise. It was called speak to me, I’m digressing a little but it was a cover of a Kari Jobe song, ANYWAY
there’s a line in the song it goes “speak to me, I’m listening” and in that moment, I said to myself ‘I want that’ so I prayed and just asked the LORD to come and speak to me, that I was listening, I had no agenda other than to be with him in that moment and hear his voice. Not even to hear his voice about my situation, my life, my family or anything, I just wanted to hear his voice.
I felt the LORD speak to me, reminding me of the passage in 1 Samuel 3 where the LORD calls Samuel. At first Samuel thinks it is Eli, not knowing the voice of the LORD yet, he does this several times and on the third Eli realises it is God and instructs Samuel to say V9 “Go lie down and if the LORD calls you again say speak LORD, your servant is listening” the story continues on that God spoke to Samuel and from that point on people knew him as a prophet of the LORD.
There is several things that are really amazing about this story, but the one thing that stuck with me was that God spoke to Samuel as he was sleeping…SLEEPING!!! Wow!
Samuel didn’t have to do something in order to hear from the LORD he was asleep, resting and then it hit me; I just needed to be me in His presence, no more or less, I could fully rest knowing that He would do as he pleased and that I’m FULLY His in this moment, of laying out in the sun.
Towards the end of the song, there’s a speaker who gets up and starts declaring names of the LORD, and he says one I wasn’t expecting…BREAKTHROUGH and all of a sudden this wave that I can only describe as heat swelled in my chest and I burst into tears.
The God of breakthrough that I had been praying and fasting for, for the last couple of weeks literally broke through my body into my heart and I could not control it, I didn’t want to either.
I sat there in awe of what had just happened and looking back, I had been so focused on the God breaking through my situations that I hadn’t let him break through me yet!
I still can’t begin to process that moment but I know that, that’s what the LORD is doing in me, breaking through so he can reveal himself to me, to others, I don’t know what that looks like yet but the three words I leave you with as I leave Guatemala for Nicaragua are:
HOPEFUL – that God has been there and will be there in all things, I don’t worry about what the future holds, I have the LORD of hope living in me.
FAITHFUL – that no matter what I do from this moment on, I have faith that moves mountains and that I have a faithful Father who knows my every need.
THANKFUL – that this month has been amazing, getting to work with and alongside my host and team has been incredible, that although some things haven’t been easy we have fought for one another and pushed into seeing what the LORD is doing in Guatemala.
This is my host and his family, I would really appreciate your praying for him and his family as we prepare to leave, we have been so blessed by him and everything he has done for us.
Lastly if it works, here is the song I mentioned earlier 🙂
