Well, I am attempting to break through it. I still sat here for a good 10 minutes before I could even get this sentence out.
There has been so many things the Lord has done over these last 8 months that I want to share, it has just been hard to find the right words.
My heart has softened, not just softened, but I feel like the Lord has given me a completely new heart. I have gone so much deeper with the Lord than I ever thought was possible. I have started healing in areas where I thought I would be wounded forever. I have made connections with people that will stay formed for the rest of my life. Last year, I did not say many hard goodbyes, in fact, there is only 2 times I can recall that it actually pained me to walk away from the connections that were formed during ministry. This year, it seems like almost every person I meet is a hard goodbye. I know this is because the Lord is teaching me how to be more intentional with people, and when that happens, when you see people, connections are formed and it is hard to walk away from them knowing you will most likely never see them again.
I want to start a series called Breaking Through the Writer’s Block where I can kind of reflect over the last 8 months and share with you all what the Lord has done in hoping it will help me write about what he is currently doing as well.
This year looks so different from last year and I am still trying to find the words as to why this is the case, but it is. I tried to write the same way as I did back then, but I just couldn’t do it. It’s a new year, new experiences and I can’t push that through the same structure I had from last year. In trying to find this new way of telling what the Lord is doing, I have been so at a loss for words that I just have not tried to communicate all the crazy things that I have been a part of this year.
But the Lord has done so much. In me. In America. In my team. It is so encouraging and needs to be shared. So have grace on me as I try to find the words to adequately portray the incredible provision, hand, and power of the Lord over the last 8 months.
The verse that has been on my heart a lot over the past month is Revelation 12:11.
“And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony” (NASB).
How true is that? Once someone has an experience or encounter with the Lord, the enemy is done for. Once someone has a testimony, it is like a stake in the ground, and an anchor in the waves. That person has an unshakeable testimony about an unshakeable God, and their foundation just got solid enough to stand firm in the storms.
Thanks for reading! There is more to come.
Love,
A
I am currently struggling financially. The Lord has called me to be with World Race America and we finish up at the end of November. I am fully funded (PRAISE THE LORD!), but I am seriously lacking in personal money. Fundraising covers the cost of lodging at $4 a day, food at $4 a day, travel expenses (gas, washes and cleaning, and maintenance), ministry expenses (this could look like anything like giving a donation to ministries that impact us, creating ministry like putting together homeless bags, etc.).
Asking for money is probably one of the most uncomfortable things for me to do, but I know this is something that comes along with being on the field. It is so hard to be vulnerable and solely rely on Lord for the things that I need and want, but I am learning so much through it. For example, money is a source of security for me. If I have money in the bank I am doing okay, if not, I am struggling. The problem is money is so temporary, but the Lord is eternal. Through this I am learning to shift my securities to the Lord, and not on whatever number is in my bank. I am learning to steward the money that the Lord has handed me well. I am learning to call on the Provider to provide and not my parents. I am still learning.
If you want to support me financially, I would so greatly appreciate it. I have paypal ([email protected]) and venmo (ambermannion).
