I’ve been praying that the Lord would soften my heart – that He would break my heart for what breaks His. And He is answering that prayer daily. This has been a very emotional week. Not only has the Lord been breaking my heart for the orphans that I get to love on, but He has been breaking my heart through the process of revealing my own sin. Ignorance.
Abba,
I am heavy. There is a weight on my chest. I look around and see need, but not enough help. I look at the babies in my arms and see your creation crying out for love – love that can’t be satisfied until they experience the goodness of your grace and truth. I look at myself, disgusted that I have spent so many years ignoring this. Ignoring them. Ignorant to the darkness that lingers all around the world. Ignorant to starvation, homelessness, orphans and widows, lack of medical attention, abuse, and spiritual blindness. My heart is shattered by this world that I live in. And by myself. My own brokenness. Yet, You so graciously cover it. Lord, you are good. You see these burdens. You feel this heaviness. You know this pain it all too well. And you have compassion. Teach me, Lord, to love with your love. To never walk away from these pressing issues, but to run into them full-hearted, putting on Your armor, radiating the light of Your love that you have given me through Your Holy Spirit. And there will be victory. Because you are a victorious God. Your name will be made know. Your goodness will be revealed. And your Kingdom will reign forever. All the glory and honor and praise to You.
June 7th, 2018
