Y’all I have less than a month left
Leaving. Wow. It came so soon. Training camp has come and gone and I’m so thankful for it. It has calmed all my nerves about leaving bc now I know how amazing the people I’m going to be living with are. But… as I spend the last few days with my friends before they head out for their separate colleges I’m having a hard time with feelings. I’m totally upset about having to part ways, but I’m excited to leave and start a new chapter. I’ve said bye to only a few since most are leaving later in the week, but the ones I’ve said bye to I’ve had a numb feeling. I think it’s really hitting me that I’m going to be gone for so long. I’m actually confused. I’m so excited but so scared. What am I going to do without seeing the same people I normally do not for a full year. I’m going to miss all my peeps so much.
I’m excited for them and their new journeys and the same for me. But I think I’m going to be all torn up about seeing them together bc I’ll be left out.
I keep forgetting that I need to take a step back and call on Him. I keep forgetting that I need to put all my trust in Him and have Him take control. I really am excited that I get the chance to learn how to do this (because I’m SO bad at it) it’s hard for me to see that He has it all under control because I can’t see him. On my race I’m so excited to get to know Him better, hear Him louder, and trust Him fuller.
I’m thankful for a teammate that reminded me of this as I shared my feelings. I’m so so excited to grow closer to these people while having the Lord as our center.
This is going to be challenging but I’m ready for the challenge…. Lord I’m ready to commit all and everything to you!
Let’s go on The World Race!!!!!
