It’s been six months- six months since I have slept in my own bed, six months since I have seen my family, and hardest of all, it’s been six months since I have seen a Chipotle.
At times it seems endless, as if this long journey will never come to an end. Yet somehow I kind of think that I don’t want it to ever come to an end. I have come to love all the new challenges God has entrusted me with.
When preparing for the race, I knew that sacrifices were going to be made. But I had no idea that one of the biggest sacrifices I would make would be myself- I’m not the same Abby I was six months ago.
God handed me a new responsibility, one that called me to be a team leader on our squad. To be honest, this is completely out of my character. But since being in this position I have gained more confidence, self-disciple and discernment. Not all the time is it fun to be a leader. There will be times when you have to address problems and the conclusion is not always going to leave people happy. However, it has given me the opportunity to grow in areas I never would have otherwise.
This life right now challenges me to take myself deeper. I was asked to leave behind my comforts, which did not limit to just the comforts of home – I was called past it all, into the unknown.
Lately, God has been asking me to live a radically different life, one that is set apart. You see, I use to live this life for me; I knew of the gospel and of the Lords promises but was not fully living for the eternal glory that was set before me. Part of me started to think if I am not living this life for God then I am against him, I was indulging in my flesh, consumed by my thoughts. But in the light the Father spoke to me. Yes, we have free will but in the end this life is a gift from God. He shared with me this beautiful passage:
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
ETERNAL GLORY, friends! This life is a blur compared to what is to come. Why waste another moment in fear? In worry? In self-doubt? Holding fast to truths of the fruit of endurance has helped me grow into a new Abby. We do not have to lose heart because this life does not compare to what is to come! I’m here today, prone to be a living testimony that living in Christ and for the eternal will bring you far more joy and than you can fathom!
