A week out of Training Camp and the Lord has been showing me my true heart. A heart that has been twisted by this world. A heart that cares to much about what this world and the people in it have to say.
At Training Camp we talked about what the Holy Spirit is already doing here in our communities and how we could ask to be a part of that. That could look like a lot of things. The Holy Spirit could ask us to pray for our waitress at dinner, or to strike up a conversation about Jesus with a man in Target. The Holy Spirit is working everywhere so the options are endless for where He may choose to use us if we ask Him too.
This past week, as I had my time in the morning with Jesus, I asked Him to use me that day. In anyway that will further His kingdom and allow me to see His glory. That day I went to Sam’s Club with my dad. I felt the largest urge to pray for our Exit Greeter, Tammy. Here was Christ, doing exactly what I had asked Him to do. And what did I do… I freaked out.
“There is no way God wants me to do that..” “This lady will think that I am crazy..” All these thoughts filled my mind and heart as we walked away from Tammy that day. I was eaten up with guilt and conviction the rest of the day and into the next day. So I went back. I did not find Tammy, but I prayed for her there in the Sam’s parking lot.
I was so scared of what this woman and the people around me would think to just take a second and chat and pray with her. I was too worried about my worldly reputation…
From the head to the heart
You take me on a journey
Of letting go and getting lost in you
……..
There’s no shame, in looking like a fool
When I give you what I give you what I can’t keep
And take a hold of you
This song was sung at TC and I just can’t get it out of my head. Y’all there is no shame!! In doing exactly what Christ has for you. He wants me to be apart of the glory He is creating here on Earth. Am I going to let my reputation get in the way of that? Are you?
I’m still working on listening the Holy Spirit and discerning His voice. But y’all, whatever He has for us, no matter how uncomfortable, will always be worth it. And we have to keep reminding ourselves of that.. daily.
With love,
Sav
Song: Head to the Heart // Artist: United Pursuit
