I have rewritten this blog post about a thousand times because I am honestly learning so much from Lord right now that I do not know how to put it into words. So bare with me.
Life is confusing. It is hard. But Christ is the opposite. He is joyful. He is full of hope and mercy and grace. And for that, I have never been more thankful. Or maybe it’s better for me to say that I have never been so aware of all of those things at one time.
Let me give you some background. Here is where I am right now. I have applied and been accepted to take the greatest adventure that I could ever imagine. I should be graduating in May 2017, allowing me to take this adventure in August 2017. Did you catch that? I SHOULD be graduating in May. But right now, that is uncertain. Some things have happened that leave that part of my life kind of scary and confusing. My first reaction to this news was to cry. I freaked out thinking that my life was over. That God had built up this excitement then left me to fall. But that is so far from the truth.
Over the past week, I have been reminded time and time again that God is with me. He is walking with me through all of this. He has a plan for me. No matter my doubt or nervousness about the future. It is definitely easier to feel sorry for myself and think that everything is going to fall apart. But that leaves me sad, and seeing the negative in every day life.
“Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but steadfast love surrounds the one who trusts in the Lord.” Psalm 32:10
I do not want to live life with many sorrows. That is not how the Lord wants us to live life! He wants us to trust Him. He wants us to feel that love that he has for us each and every day.
Does that mean that I cannot be upset? No. Does that mean that it is okay to be nervous? Yes. Does that mean that I should think Christ has abandoned me because life is a little more confusing then normal? Absolutely not. All this means is that I get to be hopeful in something other than life working out in the way I wanted it too. I get to hope in the plans of Christ! How awesome! I get to hope in the fact that he is working out all the plans for what is to come in the next few months. And I am free to just let him do that.
“Be glad in the Lord, and rejoice, O righteous, and shout for joy, all you upright in heart!” Psalm 32:11
I can find JOY in the Lord. Period. Not my circumstances. Which brings a smile to my face as I type this out. I get the pleasure of knowing that either way, graduate in May or not. Christ has me. He has a plan for me. And that alone I will rejoice in.
So, today. Let Christ be the center of your joy. Not the mess of life that is surrounding you.
With Love, Sav
