Why this month hurts
The home of children left for better lives,
sometimes end up left behind.
We see them everyday and hold them when we can,
but that doesn’t always work out when we leave and they think man…
What caused them to stop coming,
maybe it was me – have I done something?
Just like my parents dropped me here,
maybe they really didn’t care.
A children’s home is a hard place to work in,
especially when the children think that they are broken.
But what can we do, but love temporarily,
or maybe love forever, but comparitivly.
They don’t know that we will be praying for them for a lifetime,
only assuming we loved them once, but not for a lifetime.
We couldn’t take them home with us though they felt we were close,
‘Nothing last forever’ gets written in their notes.
I hope that we leave behind a simple thing we’ve spoken,
that even when their broken, God still loves to call them chosen.
I’ll miss those little buggers – being many miles apart.
I will say goodbye to them, but never in my heart.
I know it was cheesy, but it’s fine.
We just had a pretty tough Monday here in Zimbabwe. We had nine of our kids move to another home beccause they were older than the ‘age out’ period. It was really weird for me because usually we are the one’s leaving, but this time — they left us. And I don’t think they fully understood because when I told one of my kids bye, he said, “It’s okay. I’ll probably see you at Holiday Club.” I didn’t know how to respond because that (VBS) ended on friday and I won’t ever see them again. I cried.
Most of them have been in the home for most their lives. So they were really being raised by the wonderful home staff — some of which even wanted to adopt the kids, but couldn’t because the government doesn’t allow single parents to adopt. I cannot imagine how they felt today. The staff literally raised them from babies and I was heart broken after only a couple weeks. There is an upside though, now the younger kids will have more space and attention. Thank God for a bright side.
Like Mel said today, “we have to love deeply, but loosely.”
Pray for:
The kids comfort, peace, and excitement
The staff member’s comfort, peace, and love
We travel on Thursday with an Abu Dhabi and Newyork Layover before Country 10 –> Haiti!
