Correction, I hate writing for other people. I just need to get that out there. If you know me well, you might know that I keep a journal with me pretty much 24/7. I spend around an hour a day journaling. I am an early riser who loves to stay in bed and spend time with God, my prayers, thoughts, and set intentions for each day. I go through seasons where I run dry in what to say or how to articulate my emotions but for the most part journaling comes extremely naturally to me. However, writing for other people does not. I am a type A gal who deals with the issue of perfectionism so the thought of articulating myself in a grammatically correct and beautifully flowing, storytelling, heart-capturing way absolutely scares me. Add that to the fact that I went to business school where I wrote only 4 large papers over the course of 4 years, I feel as though I don’t even know how to write. (To my friends who studied communications, I know four papers sounds absurd and exaggerated but I truly avoided every writing class out there…)
So let me tell you what I am going to do about this: I am going to try my best. I am going to pray God gives me the words to share my stories on the World Race because they are going to be incredible. I pray God gives me discipline and helps me get over my fear of “the perfect blog.” I pray that my readers give me grace in my spelling, grammar, and storytelling flow (or whatever you call it) because I really don’t know what I am doing. But God gave me a voice and that is reason enough to share His glory and what He is doing in my life. I can’t wait to share my journey with others. I know how important it will be for my loved ones to have some understanding of what I am seeing or going through in order to connect to me while I am gone. This leads me to my next thought… (See how do I transition here hahah?)
Friends, I have been so quiet about my faith my whole life. I have tried so hard to keep my relationship with Jesus a personal relationship in order to the respect beliefs and opinions of others. That won’t change but, because I am choosing to go on this crazy adventure where I’ll spread God’s word and love, I realize that is something worthy of sharing and shouting about! I don’t want anyone to get scared and run off when they start reading about my heart and who I believe my God is. Instead, I hope that you can read with an open mind and open heart. I hope that my readers can take a few moments to read my stories, pause, and reflect so they can better understand who I am as well as who the God that I trust and follow so closely is. It makes me sad to think that I have kept my intimate relationship with God so hidden from others. If I were in love with a man, I would not keep him hidden; I would want to share him with the world. I pray that this new life journey and my blog platform give me the opportunity to be vulnerable and share my perspective with you all. I may not have the perfect words, scriptures, or metaphors to sum up my experiences, but I am going to try and treat this blog just as I treat my journal—authentic, messy, sometimes all over the place, but a true reflection of my heart.
The end.
(Just kidding… I am still learning how to wrap things up at the end too haha ;), bear with me)
P.S. If you have any writing tips or if you ever need clarification on my writing or thoughts please reach out to me, I won’t be offended and would love to chat!
P.P.S Shout out to Erika Torvik for often reading over these blogs and helping me with my grammar and diction. You are a true baby angel and I appreciate your help always.
