Surrounded by people 24/7, on our second translator (long story), new team of all women, in Africa where people don’t think I’m an American missionary because I look like the locals, lets be real, because I am black so they just don’t notice me. Constantly fighting the urge to scream from the lack of freedom.
Not being able to explain fully that I am in my room having alone time with Jesus, because where we are I’ve notice no one reads their Bible unless they are in church or evangelizing so when I say I’m in my room reading my Bible, they think I’m sick, sad or in a bad mood or worst not happy with them or what they are doing. (People here only go in their rooms to nap.)
IT GETS WORST!!!!
So preaching scares me but I decided that anything that scares me, I am going to push myself and do it because I just refuse to have ANYTHING keep me in fear, no sir not this girl.
We have been going village to village evangelizing and the first day your girl was READY!! We got to pray for a witch, yes a witch, my team had a little hiccup and it brought about some honest feedback about how I was ready to go pray with God leading but they due to not hearing the translation were waiting for our host to give them the green light to go pray and that caused pausing and tension, which we that same night layed out and spoke about at the dinner table.
Great right? wonderful?
NOOOOO!!!! because the next day when we went evangelizing, all I got from God was to pray, okay sir, I’ll pray and than today happened….God told me to sit back, watch, listen, pray and allow my team to grow in their trust in Him and His voice. (also He pulled our host out from coming with us.)
So now I have to sit back, watch, listen, pray and give my team mates the chance to grow; wait sit back and watch? Do you even know me? Do you even understand what you are asking of me? AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!
So this is where I am at…I am in Africa, Cote d’Ivoire, in the bush of Mahaplue. Blending in with the locals to the point people don’t think I’m a missionary, surrounded by people 24/7, privacy is a luxury I left in central America, coming to my room/staying in my room causes alarms to go off, if I sit with my arms cross the alarms also go off, new team of all females, and now I have to sit back, watch, listen, pray and let growth happen.
I am not happy with this BUT because I know God loves me and all His children, I am being obedient in serving Him where and how he has called me too.
I probably will sneak a walk to the mango tree, scream, shed some tears in less than five minutes because that’s all I have before someone comes and ask what’s wrong haha
My name is Oriolyne and this is my life this month, I am not fully happy but I am living it full of joy!!!
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