As I counted down the days until training camp all I could think about was the fear I had. “Your squad is going to hate you. The leaders are going to think you are not good enough to go on the World Race. You will never be able to do the hike in that amount of time. You are not good enough. You are not strong enough. I am never going to be enough.” These are all the lies the enemy was whispering in my ear. By the time I got to Gainsville, Georgia the enemy had consumed all of my thoughts and I was more afraid of going to training camp than I was excited. Boy did all those fears wash away the minute I stepped out of my car. I was greeted with smiling faces of quiet squad mates and ecstatic mentors, trainers, and coaches. I remembered why I was at training camp and I remembered that I AM ENOUGH because God made me enough.
I could write a novel about all the things that I learned at training camp but since this is a blog and ain’t nobody got the time to read about EVERYTHING I learned, I will just stick with one thing I learned.
I AM
After careful consideration and prayer my mentor, trainers, and mobilizer all came together to choose our possible teams. We did one final team building exercise and then stepped into a room to discuss the possibility of us becoming a team. We talked about how we all had a peace about this team and that we all felt safe together. (Our team name is Vessel of Peace because of this discussion.) While we were talking one of my trainers mentioned something he lived by. He said that using the words “I AM…” followed by something negative is like saying God, or THE I AM, is that negative thing as well. For example, when I said, “I am not good enough.” or when I said, “I am not strong enough.” That was like saying the Jesus is not good enough. The Lord of the universe is not strong enough. WOW!! What a new perspective I have about saying I AM.
I am made in His image and He knows every hair on my head…for HIM… I AM ENOUGH because He made me enough.
Looking back at all those fears I had now I can see what the enemy was trying to do, but the LORD showed up! Thank you Jesus for being enough and making me enough.
Next time you think, “I am weak/unwanted/unloved…” just remember that He is strong, wanted and loved…and so are you!
Jesus said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, before Abraham was born, I AM.”
-John 8:58
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