Can I just start by saying how excited I am?
Well, I’m excited! Each day is a day closer to training camp, and then a day even closer to launch. Though with the excitement, there is also a bit of stress. Plans and preparations have always had a way of making my head spin and my mind go in a million and one different directions. There are still some support letters to be sent, t-shirts to sell, fundraisers to organize, doctors appointments, gear to research and buy, and the list just goes on and on. If I’m being honest (and I am), fundraising is one of the scariest and hardest things I have ever had to do, and I have only just gotten started! Each and every day, I have to make the choice that I am going to trust in the Lord and know that HE WILL PROVIDE!
There was one day recently in particular that I was feeling anxious and discouraged. I sat down with my morning coffee and Bible to get in a bit of reading before work. It was in Matthew 6 that the Lord chose to speak to my heart in a way that I desperately needed it.
In Matthew 6, we read about being anxious, and the fact that it really does nothing for us. God has shown us through His creation that we have no need to fear for provision. If He would take care of the birds and the flowers and the fields, why would He not care for us? In particular, verse 33 says “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you“. This verse struck me with the reminder that my number one concern needs to be about knowing God more, each and every day, and being about His business. I need to simply do my part, but then leave the rest in His capable hands. So what if the needed outcome does not make sense in human terms or standards? God is not bound by the finite things of this world and for that I am continually thankful.
It has been such a neat experience to be learning these things already, because how much more will I need to trust in Him when I am out on the race in a few months? It will not be an easy journey, and I know that I will have to rely on Him in ways that I never have before. But even now, through these tasks, He is stretching me and growing me, and teaching me what it means to rely fully on Him.
