About 2 weeks ago, my squad had the opportunity to go to cambodia for a week and meet up with 3 other squads. There were about 200 world racers in one area! When a couple of squads are in the same region, in our case Southeast Asia, they have a conference for all of us together. It’s called the awakening.
When we first got to cambodia, after a couple of flights and sleepless nights we didn’t know what to expect, but we did have unintentional expectations. We had a feeling we would have some major worship and mind blowing teachings! So when we started the first day, my team and I were a little disappointed, and we didn’t really know why. I think we just expected so many big things to happen. We expected the week to be LIT from the very start. But, we all know everything is in God’s perfect timing.
By that night, I was sitting in a chair during worship and I just started praying. I just started asking the Lord for someone to touch me or pray over me, or tell me some prophetic word, anything! Well, not even a minute after I asked the Lord for that, my teammate, Devon started rubbing my back. I started sobbing. She had no clue that I was praying for that, but she felt the need to rub my back. Later that night, my other teammate Erica came up to me and just started praying for me. The Lord had not only confirmed her was hearing my just once but twice by the end of the night. It doesn’t end there, by the end of the week, I think I was prayed over about 6 times. This is just one example of the Lords faithfulness to us.
Then I started to think, why, if the Lord is so faithful to me, am I not obedient to him? He shows me everyday that he has a great plan and will never fail me? Why do I not obey when he asks me to do things? I disobey him daily. The awakening was a realization for me.
How many times has the Lord asked me to go pray for someone and I don’t. Usually I will respond to the Lord with “Nah, not today, Lord. Thank you, but no. Someone else will do it.” I started to think, what if God was asking me to go pray for someone who was asking for prayer? What if the person he was telling me to pray for was doing the same thing I was? What if no one would have obeyed God and touched me or prayed for me or whatever else?
Well, to answer that last question, it wouldn’t happen. The Lord always answers prayers. I was right in saying he would use someone else, because he would. But, something else I thought about was God CAN use someone else, but he WANTS to use me. It’s amazing to me that out of all the people in the world, in that moment, the Lord wants to use me to answer someone’s prayer.
I will continue to make mistakes, and there will be times I don’t obey the Lord, but I will make sure that I try my best to obey. Fear and my fleshly self will never will never stop me.
I am going to be an obedient daughter of the Lord
