Some thoughts since being home.
Home for me feels like holding on to several difference opposing emotions – all at once.
Grieving and joy
Unrest and peace
Anger and laughter
Disappointment and anticipation
Longing and striving
To feel these is hard. But that’s what season I’m walking through right now. I wouldn’t even call it walking- more like laying- surviving- abiding in a place where the Divine is my only hope. Where I have to trust that Emanuel – God with US- is here- and because he is God with us, he is also God WITHIN us. Who resides in our hearts as Holy Spirit. His presence alone brings peace. He has not left us instead he gave us this advent season to anticipate the coming King. I feel as if I’m walking in the dark and he is the only guiding light. But I KNOW in my head and my heart his character. He’s steadfast and true and I trust him. He’s bringing hope to the lost. Light to the darkness. Sometimes that light he brings is to your family. Sometimes it’s to your mind, to your school, to your job. But he promises to always be the guiding light. And so surrender, dear. Walk, no run, towards that guiding light.
thanks for all your thoughts and prayers through this journey. Thankyou for your financial support as well.
blessings,
Liz
