4th time’s a charm! Satan must really not want this blog written!
Where do I begin??
First off, I’m still trying to pick all my marbles up off the floor from finding out at camp that I’m officially fully funded!!! Like, what??? You mean to tell me that even through my utter lack of faith, God still loves me enough to show me He is going to provide for me no matter what?? Yes! He absolutely is!!! I got a late start in the game so the thought of raising $17,000 and meeting the deadlines terrified me. Through this entire process, God has truly shown me that nothing is too big for Him or impossible for Him to do so whatever the situation might be, fundraising $17,000 or any other situation life throws at us, we must seek God and know that He will never leave our side. He is going to protect and provide for us in ways we could never imagine! To every single person who financially gave, thank you! I genuinely appreciate you for your willingness, you’re obedience, and your desire to support me and come alongside me on this incredible journey God has called me to! (The financial bar on my home page does not depict me being fully funded yet, once I send in the cash and personal checks given to me, then it will!)
“If we died with him, we will also live with him; if we endure, we will also reign with him. If we disown him, he will also disown us; if we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.” 2 Timothy 2:11-13
A week ago today, I was sitting at the airport waiting for my flight home trying to wrap my brain around everything I had just experienced the past 10 days. A week later and I’m still trying to process things (hence why I’m just now trying to write this blog). A few words to describe camp- Freeing. Life changing. Exhausting. Rejuvenating.
One thing I already knew about myself but was affirmed while at camp, was how much I have let the standards of this world define me. I let those standards of how to be “good enough”, words of people, and comparison, seep down and resonate in my bones and as a result, it produced an extremely insecure girl who devalued her worth as a person. Camp not only radically changed my way of thinking but freed me from that bondage. My true identity does not lie in the standards of this world. My true identity lies in my Creator (Psalm 139:13,16) who made me into His own image (Genesis 1:27) and saw that it was very good , my Protector, my Provider, the one whom my soul longs for. So who cares if I’m not pretty enough, or skinny enough, or funny enough to the world?? I am precious, perfect, and wonderfully made in my Father’s eyes! Worship was by far one of my favorite parts of camp. I’ve never experienced worship the way I did. It was so powerful and the presence of the Holy Spirit completely drenched us! I opened myself up, poured myself out to our Abba Father and basked in His love. It was peaceful, it was freeing, it was incredible especially while experiencing it all with a couple hundred brothers and sisters in Christ. It was so moving to the point of tears almost every night!
Through praising our Father together, enduring cold bucket showers, morning exercises, a 3 mile hike in under 50 min, sleeping in tents in what felt like the arctic some nights and eating weird things at times, we did it together as a squad. I had the absolute honor of making 57 strangers not only friends but family. The amount of love and bonding we shared in just 10 days, will make for lifetime relationships. I cannot wait to serve and do life with these human beings.
I don’t want to give away too many specifics in this blog for future racers because they need to go into this with NO expectations, which is what I did and was absolutely blown away to see how God moved. If any of you would like more details, just get with me. =) hopefully I didn’t ramble TOO much and you were able to have a little better understanding of what camp was like and maybe why I’m still trying to process!
I now have about 2 months left before launch so please continue keeping me In your prayers! I am so excited to see God work and all the opportunities that are going to present themselves to us to share the love of Christ all over the world!
(If you all could do me a favor and share the link to this blog on social media I would be so grateful! I’m taking a break from Facebook right now, but I’d still really love for people to have a chance to read this! Thanks yall!)
“I’m no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God.”
