Head or heart; what’s the difference?
At this point on the Race the Father has finally driven home this idea within me: you can only flirt with fire for so long before you get burned. While He is compared to an all consuming Fire, going deeper with Him and strengthening and building relationship with Him isn’t at all like being burned, it’s exactly like falling in love. I’ve decided that I’ve been flirting with Him long enough and now He’s absolutely consumed me in headlong devotion and utter adoration. It’s no longer about how much I do or don’t because I’ve finally just accepted His endless. constant love, His love that doesn’t take any work on my part but just my being. I am loved. And now I can’t stop loving Him.
He taught me what it is to just love another, without any requirements or demands but reciprocation. Let me paint you a picture:
Caleb (one of the little boys I taught English throughout my time here)was out to tell us all goodbye. When I saw him I called out to him, as he was tying his shoes apparently, and he immediately came running to hug me. A foot away he tripped and I just barely caught him. Then I lifted him back onto his feet and bent down to tie his shoes for him. As I told him he could run freely without falling and stood up he hugged me then pulled out a bright blue necklace and gave it to me.
THIS is how loving the Father is: He calls to us and even as we run to Him we fall. But then He catches us and ties our shoes and all we can do is present Him with our hearts. And He loves that more than anything else and absolutely cherishes it. He delights in the offering of our hearts and lives and doesn’t care about how often we stumble and fall so long as we fall into His arms. This is intimacy and relationship with God through Jesus Christ and it’s SO much more and better than any empty religious practice without moments like these. I hope all who know of Him get to know Him more intimately, in this way and of course tgat all those who don’t know His love and affection come to!!!
