It’s crazy to think that month 2 has come and gone and that we are now beginning month 3 here in Bulgaria.
Last month God worked so much in me and redeemed me from a lot of things. For a long time I have struggled with feelings of brokenness, failure and not feeling like I was enough. I had so many issues that needed to be fixed and nothing I could do was good enough. Of course I couldn’t really let anyone know this and see my “brokenness” so I started functioning in my false self. A self that told everyone I was fine and had to have the appearance that she had everything together all of the time. These were of course lies from the enemy that I believed and had allowed to become part of my identity.
If you really took a minute and thought about it I bet you’d be surprised by how often we let this happen. How often do we allow others and the world tell us who we are instead of who God says we are? How often do we let others determine our truths?
Well God spent a lot of time this month showing me the reality of His truth vs my lies and redeeming me from a lot of that. He spoke truth into the lies the enemy had told me, the lies that I had now made my truth. He said that I am more than enough, that I am perfectly made, that I am His beloved daughter and that I am worthy. Now I’ll be honest it’s a process for sure, but He’s been teaching me to recognize those lies and start replacing them with the truth of what He says about me. You see we find our identity in the Lord, and in the Lord alone, and because of that we are made new.
So God also gave me a word for my race this year, steadfast. Steadfast means resolutely or dutifully firm and unwavering. God is so good for giving me this word because I feel like it is the perfect word for me for this next year! It is such a good summary of how I want my relationship with the Lord to be. 1 Corinthians 15:58 says “Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain.” So I will remain steadfast in the Lord, what He calls me to do and what He says about me.
Sometimes it hard to recognize the lies that others, the world and the enemy are telling us. It’s hard to recognize when we are operating in our false selves. But when you take some time to sit with the Lord and ask Him to identify and speak truth into those areas it is so good. I can’t express how freeing it is to be able to be your actual self and not who you think you have to be or who others are telling you to be. We are all unique and have beautiful stories, remember God made us perfectly in His image so don’t be afraid to take that step and be you.
