My Squad and I arrived Sunday here in Pattaya, Thailand for Debrief. We spend the 5 days debriefing as a Squad. Leadership flies in from the States and pours into us while we rest physically and spiritually. I will be honest when I arrived on Sunday I was not myself. Physically, my body had been put through the ringer due to a nasty bacterial infection I contracted at the beginning of arriving in Thailand. Spiritually, I was bone dry. My team’s time traveling from city to city in Indonesia pouring out the Love of Jesus everywhere we went in combination with the past 5 months put my spiritual gas tank on empty.
On Sunday evening our squad leader, Megan, led our first session. I didn’t know what to expect. All I knew was I had nothing to give. She vision casted for what the week was going to look like. She talked about how this Debrief would be a time for us to hit reset and recharge. She laid out some questions for us to really take to the Lord and process. Then she said she had a gift for us. She began to pass out letters that we had written to our 6 month selves.
My letter sat in my lap and stared at me. I didn’t want to open it. The Race has been nothing I expected and everything I needed. What would I have written to myself 6 months ago that could possibly apply to what I have felt and experienced? I stared at my letter a few more moments, prayed, opened it and began to be filled up by my prior self…
The person I barely recognized knew exactly what I would need to hear as I sit criss-cross-apple-sauce, spiritually bone dry and physically exhausted entering month 6. This is what “she” said…
Dear Kayce… 6 months from now 😀
6 DOWN – 5 TO GO! I’m not sure what your life is going to look like but I know it is going to be a beautiful display of the kingdom being sought out daily. Remember that this is everything you have been praying for for years. Im sure it hasn’t always been easy. I’m sure there are days where you’ve missed home, days where you’ve battled illnesses and days where you’ve cried more than you would like to admit. I’m here to remind you that you are right where God wants you to be so you’re not aloud to give up now. If you’re tired… drink a Dr. Pepper and keep on keep’n on! You’ve got this! Honestly, I’m envious of you because my future self has already experienced 6 months of the Race, 6 months of kingdom, 6 months of deep community. Today you are simply a daughter waiting to embark on an incredible journey with countless possibilities. My wish for you is that you have loved so hard that you feel your heart about to burst! I pray that you have experienced pure joy and happiness, that in which can only come from the Father! If you haven’t found your purpose in this world – don’t give up! God will reveal this to you!
Love, K!
We entered into a time of worship where God sent down a refreshing and renewing spirit to cover me. He restored my child-like-joy using the combination of my own words and his Holy Spirit. Later that evening I found myself in my room, alone, blasting to country music, jumping on my bed like a child. Throughout this week a multitude of people have approached me and told me how I had so much Joy in my facial expression and that my Joy radiated across the room.
The Joy restored in me was the Holy Spirit! God new exactly what I needed to be restored. God loves each of his children deeply and intimately. He knows exactly what we need and when we need it. He loves to love us! All we need to do is sit humbly at his feet and ask. We get so caught up in the business of life that sometimes we don’t slow down enough to just sit. Be. That is… until a physical ailment benches us from functioning normally.
My prayer is that each person would receive the same fresh anointing from the Holy Spirit. I pray that he soften your heart and open your eyes to all of the amazing things he has planned for you. God uses obedient hearts to fulfill his mission on this earth.
Today will you let him use yours?
Prayer Requests:
– Prayers for safe travels. Tomorrow my Squad and I leave Pattaya to begin our 3 day journey to Myanmar(Burma). Prayers for safety and ease as we cross the boarder into Myanmar.
– My team and I will be doing Drug Rehabilitation Minitry this month. Prayers for freedom and healing for those struggling with addictions. That God equips us with ways to reach those with the disease of addiction in ways outside of our own comprehension And understanding.
– Prayers for financial support for me in this season. My prayer is to stay in the positive throughout the remainder of the Race. Pray God provides a means for that to happen (Approximately: $800 per month).
www.gofundme.com/kayces-missionary-support
– Prayers for the unspoken things that only God knows. I have prayer circles in my journal I pray daily; for myself, my squad, and friends & family in the States.
– Pray also that God’s truth would be louder than the enemies lies.
Love,
Kace
