Iv’e been made aware in the past month how the father of lies has intertwined himself into my life.
I used to be such a good liar. Obviously not something I am proud of. I lied to anyone and probably everyone at some point. I’ve lied to my family, friends, teachers, coaches.. you name it. If I knew you, I had probably lied to you.
My sister even told me that when I was in high school, she could not tell at all if I was lying or not.
Lies were just a part of life. Once I started walking in surrender to the Lord and actually having a relationship with him, I noticed that I sucked at lying. I no longer had this desire to be dishonest. I noticed that I had been walking in fear towards the truth.
Now, I have honesty as one of my top core values on how I live my life. I can’t lie anymore. The closer in intemacy I got with the Lord, the further I got from the father of lies. And you know what, he was pissed. The devil is sneaky. I stopped doing what he wanted so he did only what he knows to do. He started feeding them to me.
It’s rough because we believe him even though we know they are lies.
Ashley (our squads mentor) made us write down 5 of our top lies. Then she made us write down what the Lord says about those lies. After I had written those down, she asked us to get with our teammates and share our lies.
It sucked man. It was so hard to admit that you think these things about yourself. It hurts because you believe these as truth. They aren’t truth though.. so why do we choose to believe them?
Ash looked at us and said you are going to have to surrender these lies over to the Lord. And the hardest part was that you have to CONSIDER that you got it wrong. No one likes to say they are wrong. I know I don’t.
Not only do I have to give this thing I think about myself over, I have to believe that I got it wrong and that the Lord actually has something better for me.
Anybody else have control issues? Your dear friend Kat over here cringed at this whole lesson.
But the thing is, I am so stinking tired of feeling less than. I am tired of believing these things about myself that I hate. Satan I’m tired of your lies.
I want to believe that the Lord has something better for me than what I’m getting. Let’s start identifying these lies and giving them to the Lord. Let’s actually ask him what he has to say about us.
I know that’s what I want. Do you?
