I want to let you in on what I have experienced from Month 1 to Month 3.
Month 1 was challenging to say the least, but the amount that I grew was mind blowing. I struggled everyday in Colombia. Every. Single. Day. I depended on the Lord in ways I’ve never had to depend on him. I was sick all the time.. fighting my bodies natural instinct to be sick. I missed home. I missed my friends but, I started to learn what this new life was going to be like. What it meant to be a team of 6 women. What it meant to actively go out and spread the gospel. What it meant to follow the Lord everyday. Yeah it was hard. I cried. A LOT. But I had never been closer with the Lord. I learned what it’s like to say yes to people. I learned what it’s like to put others always before yourself. I loved Month 1. I am glad it was as challenging as it was.
Now, we are in Month 3. I honestly don’t know how. I am now on a team of 8 women. I cry less (Ha). I don’t have to finish all my food. I can eat the foods I like. Ministry is not as taxing as Month 1. I have it “easy”.. but do I? I wish I could tell you all that I have been through in the past 3 months. How hard it’s truly been. I don’t have to fight my body with eating, but now I’m fighting my brain and my thoughts. I’m giving up things that are comfortable. The Lord has been asking me to give up so many things. I should have this month to just wind down after 2 difficult months, right?
Wrong.
That’s the thing about abandoning your life when you pursue Jesus. It is hard. Even though this has been the most challenging season, I wouldn’t change it. I’d like to say that when this year is over that I’d be the same ole kat you all know and love.. but I won’t and that’s ok. There is beauty in challenge. There is beauty in change.
Embrace it. Embrace challenges because that’s what makes us grow.
