hello hello.
2016 is coming to an end and I feel like I should take some time to reflect and maybe tell you all about it.
First off, one of my goals I’m making for myself for the world race is to be completely real. I will not hide my feelings or my thoughts.
So.. 2016 was a rough year. I obviously know I’m not the only one who feels this way. People have made a horror movie called 2016.. That’s real life lol. There were many reasons why 2016 was pretty crappy. I started off the year having to move back home for my mental health and to help my eldest sister who was having some medical problems. This was not ideal.. I had been living on my own and had to move back in with my parents which was something I never dreamed of doing.
My niece who is the daughter of my sister who was having medical problems ended getting a weird medical problem of her own. She has optical neuritis. One day she noticed that hey.. I can’t see out of one of my eyes. They don’t know how it happened nor has she regained all of that vision. Very scary.
I spent most of my days the same way. I woke up, drove to my sisters, I would drive us in to town, go for a run, and run some errands. We would finish the day by picking up her daughter from school and then I’d watch her son while she taught lessons.
I never felt lonely, but I was extremely aware of my situation of being alone. I didn’t have my friends around all the time like at school. It was just me and my family.
Nothing big ever happened. Everyday was the same. I felt like I was wasting my life or so I thought.
At the beginning of the year, I went to a huge christian conference called passion conference (which I will be at in a couple of days). I prayed that I would be closer to God than I had ever been before.
In 2015, I prayed for an out. I prayed to be taken from this extremely unhealthy life style.
I got that in 2016. God gave me an out. He gave me a supportive family who understood that school was not for me. He also answered the prayer I made at the beginning of this year.
This year was far from perfect. It felt like everywhere I looked that something bad was happening. Not only in my life, but around the world.
Through this confusion and pain, I grew closer to God than I have ever been.
I was constantly looking to God for all my questions. I feel like I talked to him everyday in a way that I would to a friend. I cried out to him. I praised him. I gave others advice about him.
2016 was terrible, but also amazing. It has set me up for 2017 perfectly. I am about to be living with strangers in new countries. I am leaving everything behind to maybe shine a light on this world that is hurting.
I already know that 2017 is going to be hard, but I also know it will be one of the best years of my life. God is doing big things. Listen to his call for your life. I have and now I’m about to be sent on this huge adventure.
Hey 2017.. I’m ready.
