I’m a late night thinker. I always think the most right before I go to sleep which ends up making me not be able to sleep.
For the past couple of nights, I have found myself reading the blogs on the world race website. The vloggers I usually watch haven’t been posting lately so I thought i’d switch it up. Anyways, I have been reading all these peoples stories. What they are going through right now on the field and here at home. I used to do this all the time with Julia Robertson’s vlogs. I would watch them to get a better insight on the race.
I first started watching them last January. I thought to myself how bad I wanted to be on the race. I would day dream and watch more videos. I would day dream and read more blogs. I have been dreaming about the world race for years now. I have always known that this is where I was supposed to be. I was just waiting for the right time.
I went to one of my good friends baby shower this past weekend and saw one of the women I went to Haiti with since my junior year of high school. She started asking me about the race. I was answering all the typical questions and then she stopped me and said, “I can’t believe you are actually doing this. You were just talking about how you eventually wanted to do it this past june.”
I realized how fast all of this has gone down. I’ve prayed to God about it for so long and out of no where He was like OK NOW and I just did it. I didn’t really ask what anyone thought. I just applied and here I am. All of it has been going really fast. It’s been 2 months since I have been accepted. I have been on a roll too.
I was reading the blogs mentioned earlier and I was like this is real. I years ago I was doing the exact same thing, but now it’s different. Now, I’m doing it. I’m committed. THIS IS REAL LIFE. I’m not just day dreaming anymore. This is my life. I am preparing to be gone for a year. I’m going to be spreading the gospel for a year. I am going to be living with a group of people. This will all become a reality in a couple of months.
Honestly, it freaks me out a little. It’s going to be ok though. God is preparing my heart and mind for this journey. He never gives us more than we can handle. That doesn’t mean I’m not going to be pushed. I want to be pushed. I want to be pushed right out of my comfort zone. I want to be bold.
