It has almost been 10 full days here in Georgia and i cannot believe all the things that have happened. I will talk more about that at a later time. But for now I need to share with you something that has been happening in My heart these past few weeks.
It all started about two weeks ago when i was laying in bed at night trying to sleep. I kept laying there becasue something inside of me kept sparking and it felt as though something in me was trying to burst out but it couldn’t. I could not describe it other than i felt as though I was being subject to more and this flame or light was just laying inside of me dormant, not really doing anything. I knew that whatever it was it needed a space to be cultivated and molded.
Fast forward to training camp. A leader came up to me and told me that the Lord spoke the word activate to her for me. Either God was going to activate me or i was going to activAte something!! As I sat with it God kept bringing me back to those nights laying awake in bed with this burst of something in me fighting to be set free and he told me that it was going to happen.
This week has been nothing but growth and truth and newness and I want more!!
Hearing those words and being here and hearing from the Lord how much of a Son i am and that that is my identity just does something to you. It makes you crave and want more. It. Makes you want to walk in newness and freedom. And God has been doing a lot of freeing this week!!!
But as God is moving, so is the enemy.
In the past whenever I felt unworthy or overlooked or not good enough or just unwanted i would distance myself. I would not talk to anyone, just go off to myself. Today was one of those days.
I Sat and believed the lies i was hearing. “You dont fit in with your squad,” “you have to work harder to belong in this group.” “Your voice does not matter.” I sat in those thoughts and allowed them to steal my joy!! I distanced myself and went back to my tent and just laid there and processed and prayed and talked with a few people. Those thoughts got me to the point where i was unwilling to continue and was not going to launch. Yeah crazy I know! But God reminded me that he is faithful, that i am his son and that he has called me.
Because of this i missed out on something beautiful. My squad praising the Lord laying down burdens and becoming one. I heard everything but wanted to remain where i was at. I find it quite funny that when the Lord shows himself and works in your life here comes the enemy right there seeking to knock you down and steal everything God has just given you. And God was giving me more and drawing me into community with him and others.
I AM FREAKING DONE WITH IT!!! I am unwilling to let the enemy steal what God has done. I am unwilling to revert back to old things that have past instead of walking in the newness of life i have been given. I am unwilling to go back to what i once was. I am unwilling to live in defeat when i have been give victory. God showed up and i am willing to go the depths i need to to know him more and more .I am willing to journey with him for the sake of the gosepl and his kingdom. I want to grow and be challenged, i want to see nations come to surrneder to his love and just and goodness, i want to be more developed in the giftings he has given me for HIS purposes. I am wanting to be called to higher and live higher as a Son of God should because DAMN IT thats who i am. I am wamting more of the Holy Spirit leading me and activating me.
God is amazing and is the giver of life and desires to be in relationship with you and calls you to higher because he wants you to live higher with him. He wants your heart to be his heart and desire what he desires. My squad and i launch on this journey with the Lord in a little over a month and we are ready to see kimgdom come and ready to no longer be the same people we once were. We want more and we are hungry for Christ and his will to be done. We are unwilling to be the same and we are unwilling to be like the world.
I want you reading this to be apart of this journey with me. I need $3,000 to hit this next deadline and launch with this squad that i call family and amabassadors for Christ. I am ready for Christ to be more in and out of my life and i am ready for the activation he wants to do in me and through me for the rest of my life. I want you to be a part of that.
Will you journey with me?
Sincerely,
Your warrior in Christ
Dylan
