“But seek first His Kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you.” (Matthew 6:33)
Honestly, where do I even begin. Just in the past two to three weeks God has shown himself to me in so many ways, that are meant to draw my attention and focus on him, that I am just full of joy and peace. First of all, God has shown that there is a difference between Discovery and Revelation.
Discovery= is a process that focuses on how hard you have to work or try
Revelation= Focuses on the person and how deeply you have to trust.
Y’all the Lord Reveals himself, he is not discovered, and man that just blew my mind and overwhelmed me in a good way. God revealed to me that I have been focusing on Discovery and the process and how hard I can or need to work and try. This whole World Race process is one I am grateful for, But I have looked at this all wrong. Because of that, I have been overwhelmed and overcome with doubt, which is what should happen due to the fact that I am focused on me and my power or what I can do (process) and not what God can do or who God is (person). Truthfully, this is a hard venture, a hard process, and a difficult one at that. It seems like nothing is working or coming in. If it is, it’s very slowly, so of course what do I do? Focus on what I need to do to change that of course.
But as the Lord reveals Himself, he also showed me that He leads us to difficult and or impossible situations, so that He may be glorified and show who He is. Perfect example is when the Lord leads his people to the Red Sea, and Pharaoh’s army is right behind them (Genesis 14). What did God do? it was a difficult and impossible situation in which God revealed himself and was glorified by not only parting the sea leading his people to safety, but also destroying those pursuing his people to kill them.
I can’t help but believe that God has brought me to this difficult situation and journey for the very same purpose. But here’s the kicker: It requires patience and perseverance, two things I am not too good at. I cannot even begin to tell you the many, many times I wanted/want to throw in the towel and be like “forget it.” But the Lord revealed to me through a friend that He is building me in perseverance, which builds character and to keep waiting patiently because he does hear my prayers.
“And let us rejoice in suffering, for suffering produces perseverance and perseverance character and character hope. And hope does not put us to shame for it is God’s love poured out for us through his Holy Spirit” (Roamns 5:3-5).
As mentioned earlier, Because I am focused on the Process, when things aren’t going well or I am discouraged, I automatically think “ok, this is God showing me that I am not supposed to be doing this.” but oh is that wrong. You see what God is really showing me is that I need to get out of the way and trying to do this on my own in my own power and let him work and move. Its like I Hear him tellin gme exactly what Moses spoke to the Israelites at the sea “You need only to be still.”
HE is faithful, HE has called me to this, HE will take care of it. He wants to Reveal himself and be glorified, but how can he if I’m still preventing him from doing so? This is HARD, this requires faith (which pleases him Hebrews 11). This requires Trust (my word for the year).
Through a friend the Lord encouraged me with Genesis 50:20 to hold onto
“What you intended for evil God meant for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive as they are today.”
God also encouraged me:
“That in all things God works them together for the good of those who love him.” Romans 8:28
“Consider it pure joy my brothers when you face various trials of many kinds knowing that the testing of your faith produces PERSEVERANCE, and let perseverance fulfill its work so that you may be complete and lacking nothing.” James 1
So I will wait expectantly for him to move and do what only HE can and WILL do.
I am so excited that training camp is less than 2 months away and launch is less than 4 months away. There is still much to get done especially raising funds which I am excited to announce that I am almost $3900 away from my $10,000 deadline which is due in two months yall. this deadline lets me actually launch and go to the first country.
If you are led to donate please do so to help this come to fruition. All of this is meant to point me to Jesus, focus on him as the Person (growing in deeper trust) and wait on him, and you guys who donate are part of him working and moving and you are part of his hand at work to lead those we will encounter to himself and I am truly excited for that.
