Boldness. Bravery. Childlike Faith.
What does that look like?
What does that mean?
It looks like saying YES when all you want to do is say no to God. It looks like saying I TRUST YOU when all you want to do is run away. It looks like not doubting for a second when your mind is flooding with fear. It looks like singing in front of your entire squad and squads parents and then preaching afterwards about this very topic… when the only thing you want to do is the absolute opposite.
This blog isn’t going to be a PVT blog but I am going to reference it a lot. For PVT a small group of us planned every night and the entirety of the week for us, and our parents. I was in charge of a night called “CHILDLIKE FAITH AND BOLDNESS”. I was excited because one thing I love to do is speak in front of people… but terrified because I knew I couldnt just speak briefly on this topic without also living it out. I prayed about what that could look like for quite some time and then did something I never thought I would do in a million million years…
I messaged Tanner Wilburn on my squad and asked him if I could sing with him at PVT because he usually is the one leading our worship sets.
The minute I sent that message I wanted to take it back immediately. I was terrified of him saying anything at all… but I mostly was terrified if him saying YES… And that’s exactly what he said. The weeks following this very interaction I wanted absolutely no one to know I was leading a song. When my team found out I freaked out. When tanner would ask me to practice with him I would say no. When people would ask me I would shrivel. I was afraid.
But God was calling me into boldness and childlike faith even before I agreed to lead that night.
The moment I said yes to leading that night it clicked and I knew that was why God pushed me to sing and that was what God needed me to do on that night to step out. I practiced a total of two times with tanner before the worship night. I was afraid of what people would think of me.
But I did it.
Minutes before I went up there I prayed a bold prayer of peace and bravery and God provided. I walked up there and sang a very shaky and pitchy version of “Your Name”. I stared at Tanner the whole time for comfort. I gave it my all and all for Jesus.
I did it…GOD did it.
Then I had three other people sing after me that don’t usually sing to wrap up the worship set.
Then I talked briefly about childlike faith and boldness.
Then people came up and shared testimonies.
Then Maddie got baptized by her mom.
Then I shared more of my heart to step further into boldness.
Then we wrapped up and I walked away stunned.
Everything before the session that night had gone wrong but in the moments of everything happening it all happened in Gods timing… we had faith and God came and provided.
Did I sing perfect? Did I speak perfect? Did the session run long? Did we do everything perfect? NO. But did God come and use our willing hearts? YES. We had a “yes” in our spirits and God flooded with his presence. Because we had boldness and childlike faith God took over.
What is God calling you into? What do you need to give up? What do you need to say yes too? What actions do you need to take? What is God stirring inside you? What do you need to be BOLD in? What do you need to have FAITH in?
Say YES and God won’t say no.
