Sitting on the beach
The waves are rolling in and my mind is going a million miles a second
35 days till I am home
I am sitting here as the waves crack on the sand and I can’t help but feel
SCARED
LOST
HOPELESS
CONFUSED
UNSURE.
As the waves keep coming and the sand in my mind begins to weaken at the crack of the ocean I feel thoughts of
WHAT IFS
HOW COMES
SO WHATS
WHY.
As I call the people I love the most and continue staring at the ocean i feel the need to turn and to pray.
To pray about
MORE TIME
PATIENCE
WORRIES
EXCITEMENTS
REGRETS.
As my mind begins to flood with more and my body begins to weaken inside…
I hear a voice
I hear a sound
I hear a hope
I hear it now…
His name is
J E S U S
The new born baby king
The one who took my sins away
The man that created everything
He came down from the heaven so high and reached right now to my mind glancing at the ocean and spoke in a ROUGH AND BOLD
Whisper.
“Courtney my dear child why are you fretting? What do you have to worry?”
As my mind starts to run and the ocean starts to rise I feel my heart beating
Faster
And my mind racing
Faster
And my fear dwindling
Faster
And my hope rising
Faster
And my peace coming
Faster
And I hear
“Courtney you are my child. Why are you doubting my plans?”
My heart beat skips
My heart beat runs
My heart beat jumps
As my FATHERS words are spoken over me.
“Courtney… my child… my plans are better than yours”
My eyes are glued
My ears are listening
My heart is captivated
“You are stronger than you think you are. With me, you can do all things. Without me you can do nothing. Invite me in now and see the change that will come.”
I feel my body melting
The waves quiet down
The earth becomes still
“That fear you have inside. The mind that is running wild. That worry that is creeping in… know that it is not from me. I am here to bring you peace and understanding. You cannot tackle this on your own. My plans are greater. My ways are better. I will not harm you. Do you trust me? Do you believe me? Have I failed you yet?”
I feel that YES in my spirit
I feel that tug of the heart
I feel that worry dwindle away
I feel that fear flee
I see the sun on the horizon
I see the birds flying by at ease
I see the clouds go away
I hear the wind start to slow
I hear the birds chirping faster
I just felt the love of GOD
So here I am…
Ready to fly
Ready to run
Ready to just live
Ready to let go
Ready to release
That YES in my spirit is there and it’s strong
and it’s time
and it’s ready
To let the lord take over in these next 35 days.
Heart open
Mind cleared
Eyes set above
I’m ready for you Jesus
I surrender it all to you
