“For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.” – Galatians 1:10
Hi y’all! So this whole talking all about your feelings and stuff really isn’t my favorite thing, but I know its important and all that. Plus, the world race has been getting on us for not blogging enough, so here I am trying to keep it real with y’all on where I am at. This verse has really stuck out to me this month. Before the race I was not living my life the way I should have been for the Lord. I was going to church and all that jazz but my relationship with Him was not a priority of mine. I always tried to fix all my inner hurts and problems myself, and I would rely on people instead of Him. I particularly turned to boys, which of course never ends well. I hate to even admit all this cause it makes me sound super needy, but I have been learning that as women we have desires in our heart, and fears that stem from creation and the fall. I tried to fill those and fix those myself. I put more trust in people and loved ones around me and they are human too, so of course they couldn’t fix me or make me feel like I was enough. Let me tell you trying to please people and “be good enough for them” is exhausting cause we just can’t. God designed us for Him, and He is teaching me that He is the only one who can really satisfy my soul and heal the hurts and give me my desires. This isn’t by any means an easy process, but it’s something I am praying for and hoping I continue to strive for in my relationship with the Lord, and for the rest of my life.
