I never grew up in a family that went to church. so I never necessarily knew God. so I was constantly doing things for acceptances and to feel worth. always going to parties and being dumb. I was just trying to find something to take away trhe hurt and feeling of worthlessness I was always feeling. I first started trying to follow christ after I went to a CIY conference after my freshman year. this is a highschool you conference with large amounts of people. this was the first time I became in tune with the the Lord. I left this week long conference wanting to follow God. But nobody ever explained to me that if I wanted to follow God I would have to get rid of my old life and old friends. So I kept hanging with the same people I previously did even tho I wasent doing “as many stupid things” i wasent living fully for God. But after my sophomore year big events happened in my life where I was left completely broken and shattered. but this was a blessing because if I wasent feeling so utterly useless and shattered I would of never been fully rebuilt following God I was baptised later that summer and completely stop living my old life and no longer hung out with the people that I did in the past. but with that came this feeling of loneliness because I didn’t have any friends… but I had God and that was all that mattered to me. at that moment I knew that in would rather go through the rest of my life feeling lonely and know God that go back to my old life I was living. but after a few months I started becoming friends with other Christians. Since then I have been following God and being free.
