I sat down to write about my re-baptism at the Awakening conference, but this came out instead. So, that story will come later. For now, read this piece of work- from my heart straight to Papa’s ears.
Papa
You continually amaze me
I thought I knew what I was getting into
That I’d learn more about you
That I’d get to know more about myself
That I’d get to share your love and name with those around the world
That is all correct, but the truth is that I didn’t know what I was getting into
I didn’t know how intense these encounters would be
I didn’t know how much I really didn’t have figured out
I didn’t realize how much more healing and freedom that you had for me
There’s a stirring in my soul
One that promises more
One that promises a life of unknown and surrender
A life that promises trials and the need for trust
A stirring that promises a life of adventure and love
A life that promises victory and freedom
Papa, You’re awakening my heart and my spirit
Awakening a passion for knowing you that can’t be quenched
A heart that knows so little, but knows where to seek her truths
Teaching this heart that’s used to running to run towards you
Awakening ears that listen and recognize your voice
Eyes that take in your creation with wonder
Awakening a norm of surrender and trust
This heart may not rest easy, but you speak gently
You’re patient and steadfast in your pursuit
You’re awakening the ability to break down walls
The ability to realize my authority in you
To cast out fears and doubts that have become routine and commonplace in my mind
You’re awakening this heart to realize the truths that you speak
To believe and walk in the gifts that you’ve so freely given
To dream with you and recognize passions of my soul
Awakening the spirit of the warrior that you created me to be
That fights the good fight with love and truth
An awakening of patience and grace for myself
A heart that is learning to rest in the waiting
Awakening a heart and a spirit that will never be done learning and growing
That will strive to recognize the small things and to never stop seeking you
One that still has much to figure out and much to let go of
A heart that will forever be thankful that your grace comes in never ending waves
These are just some of the things Papa has been teaching me these last 4 months and has shown me that he wants to show me more of in these upcoming months. To be honest, I feel like I’ve only skimmed the surface on a lot of this and am looking forward to the journey ahead that takes me deeper into these waters.
How is the Lord moving in your heart? Take a moment and really ponder what he’s been trying to show you. Dive into that- the good and the hard- it’s worth it.
