There have been a lot of days lately that have felt impossible. With trying to navigate classes, World Race, GRE, PT school, work, and family fractures, I’ve felt pretty defeated and confused. What’s my role in the midst of all of this? What do I give up and what do I hold onto?
For so long I have thought that I needed to hold onto every single one of these tasks that I am striving to complete before leaving in January. I have thought that I needed to stuff my emotions so I can just get through this final semester of school. But lately Jesus has been whispering in my ear asking me to trust him and to leave it all at His feet.
Life isn’t easy. Pain is real and it can cut us to our core. However, there’s a hope that gets us through our worst days. In a weird way I’m thankful to feel the pain that hurts my heart so much because it gives me a glimpse of what Jesus once felt in the hour that all of mankind turned away from Him. Jesus paid it all. His grace is sufficient for you and I and, yes, when we are weak He makes us strong.
So in my weakness I acknowledge that I need Jesus more than ever. I need His love, His truth, and His guiding hand as I continue to walk through this challenging season of life and preparation for leaving. So my hope lies not in this world but in the Savior who set us free and has given us an eternal destination that will far surpass this life, heaven.
God has called me to the international mission field and today I head to Atlanta for 10 days of training. As I board this plane, God is calling me to begin facing my brokenness and the pain that I have allowed myself to hold onto this past summer and fall. These 10 days of training are the beginning of something beautiful, I don’t know what yet, but I do know its going to be challenging but so worth every second of it.
So my question for you is: what do you need to face? I have been learning that God wants us to face our brokenness and not run from it. Jesus paid it all so that we don’t have to hold onto our brokenness but give it up to Him. My prayer for you and I is that our hearts would truly begin understanding that God is enough and is near in the midst of pain and confusion. Give it all up to Him because he sees the full picture more than you and I will ever be able to.
Thank you for sending me to training camp! It has been through your prayers and financial giving that I have made it this far. God wants me leaving in January and will make it happen! Thank you for allowing Him to use you as a part of His grand story for my life!
I am excited to meet my 55+ squad mates and begin building an authentic community with them! Christ is moving in each one of our hearts and it’s exciting to see how 55+ ordinary men and women are going to become extraordinary together as a united body of Christ.
Will you please pray that I would allow God to continue changing and cleansing my heart for His kingdom? Please pray for safety and health also as we all train for 10 days in Atlanta and begin learning about life and ministry on the World Race.
Love Always,
Michelle
“I never said that it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it.”
