God is intentional. His plans for us are perfect, and He is working for our good even when we can’t see it.
In April I was confused, lost, and seeking assurance from anyone. I did not know what the next steps in my life would be, and I was scared of what my future held. One night, I decided to look into Gap Year programs and stumbled upon a mission program with Adventures in Missions. I decided to apply for the World Race, and when I got accepted I decided well, “Why not go?”.
Throughout the summer, I pleaded with God for assurance that I was doing the right thing, and I was reassured of his intentions and his love for me this past week. Before training camp I was questioning why I was doing the World Race in the first place and thought that maybe I had made a mistake. I was looking for reassurance from God and over these past ten days He gave me just that.
July 7, as I sat in the airport waiting to board my flight to training camp, I was shaking because I was so nervous. I was nervous about connecting with others. I thought that everyone would be perfect, and I am far from perfect. I was afraid that I would hate it and want to quit. However, that was not the case. Over the past ten days, I have formed life long friendships, experienced hurting and healing, and heard God speaking to me and working in the lives of my new family. I experienced the presence of the Holy Spirit as walls were torn down, some walls I didn’t even know I had. I experienced healing in love, and freedom. I now understand that God does not see me for my sin, and I have seen my identity in Christ. I have cried (sometimes multiple times a day), laughed until my sides hurt and made unforgettable memories with some amazing people. I have learned that bucket showers aren’t so bad, eating with you hands is really messy and that sleeping in an Eno might just be the best sleep you will ever have. My heart is so full, and it is crazy to think that if you would have asked me a few months ago my plans for the fall I would have no doubt told you that I was going straight to college. It is insane the plans God has in store for us and the ways He will work in our lives so that we can fulfill His perfect plans for us. It is Crazy what God will do and where He will lead us when we Say Yes to Him.
