I sometimes have days where I question why I am doing the World Race, while other days I question my abilities and then there are just those days where I question everything. At the heart of myself I am an introvert. I do not do well with speaking and opening up in particular to people I don’t know very well. Don’t get me wrong I love people, I am just not very good at “peopling”. When people told me that I would be telling my story to tons of people as well as contacting people for support who might not know I exist I cringed a little inside. I am often really good at telling myself that I do not have what it takes or that people won’t have an interest in what I have to say. Which could be a reason it took me two years to finally sign up for the race.
Anyways, I enjoy reading the daily devotionals/ bible studies that is provided in the youversion app. Since they are usually short and have a tendency with trouble making up my mind I often read several different ones in one sitting. I stumbled upon one today called unqualified and thought hmm that sounds like me to a T. The daily reading was about Paul struggling with weakness and asking God to fix his weaknesses. To Paul’s dismay God did not fix his weaknesses.
I am your typical guy who likes to workout and pursues to be as strong as possible. Oddly enough God takes joy in our weakness. Our weaknesses and inability or holes that we try to cover up or hide God uses to shine through. When we are strong we do not need to rely on God we tend to beat our chest and then proceed to do it ourselves. It is when we don’t have what it takes that God really shows up. Our weakness is a tool God can use to humble us. Make us realize how much we need God and how much exposing our weaknesses allows God to fill us with his abilities instead of relying on our own inabilities.
For me the World Race and specifically at this moment the fundraising process is an opportunity for my weaknesses to be used and for me to rely on God when I would rather cover those holes up. It is an opportunity for me to allow God to show up instead of saying that I can do it on my own. I am not sure how I will accomplish fundraising for the World Race or what is in store when we launch, but I do know who has the ability to provide it when I do not.
