I am currently sitting in Honey Coffee & Tea listening to an older gentleman sing and play his guitar. He has a voice that you would listen to while sitting in a rain storm just soaking in all of the feels. I like sitting in the corner of the room where I can see everything and everyone. Being able to just sit and watch this life happen. Everyone is “poppin’ n jivin’” and this old American man is making his rounds singing songs to everyone while looking straight into their souls. I love this. I am quietly singing to myself joining in on the parts I know. This is a blessing. I find it so inspiring how he is walking around and sharing the talent that he has been given.
Before he left and said good-bye, I thanked him. I told him how he blesses people with the music that he plays and that he made my heart very happy today. With that he came over to my little corner after the majority of the crowd had left and he said… “This one is just for you Gretta.” He sang a Kris Kristofferson song. I was almost in a puddle of tears listening to him sing the chorus “God Almighty here I am. Am I where I ought to be…” Roughly two years ago I had a dream/vision of me sitting in the corner of a coffee shop and being sung to by an older man. Completely unaware that this coffee shop was going to be in Baños, Ecuador and the man would be someone who could be my grandfather. I think this man saw that I was on the verge of tears because as soon as he finished he said to me, “Come here, give me a hug.” He embraced me like I was one of his grand children. He took me in as his own because he saw the vulnerability in my eyes. Just as Christ does.
He runs to us with open arms and embraces us at our most vulnerable state. No matter what we do there is nothing we can do to would make Christ love us any less. He will never reject us. For years now that is something huge that I have been struggling with, rejection. It says in 1 Timothy 4:4-5 “For everything created by God is good…” this clarifying to me that I am good enough and that I do not need to live out the labels that people place on me. Continue, “…and nothing is to be rejected…” pause, I have had so many relationships with people where they just drop me like I am nothing. The fear of rejection that I have is so real. I feel it every day but I am created in the image of God and there is NOTHING that I could do that would EVER make him reject me for who I am. “…if it is received with thanksgiving,…” something new that I have begun doing is writing down everything that I am thankful for. Whether it is the little things or the huge impacts that I have had, I thank Him first for He blessed me with everything that I have and everything that I know. Verse 5, “…for it is made holy by the word of God and prayer.” I am made holy in the eyes of our Holy King because Christ came and He died and took away any imperfection that I had. So that I, no we, may be seen holy in the eyes of the Lord. Jesus took up the cross and went out on top of that hill. He DIED so that WE may LIVE! There is nothing that can change that. Deuteronomy 4:31 says this “For the Lord your God is a merciful God. He will not leave you or destroy you or forget the covenant with your fathers that he swore to them.” He is not going to forget you or drop you like a pin. You are so incredibly special to Him and He would never want to take away anything from you or from your heart. He is all in, so you should be too. So to the man that sang his heart out to the people of this coffee shop, thank you. You have blessed me and you gave me true joy in listening to you fulfill your passion. May God Bless You Bill. May God Bless You.
youtube: Kris Kristofferson – FEELING MORTAL
