I have been in Ecuador for almost two months! I have experienced so much joy and growth in the last two months. The Lord has taught me so much about so many things. But one things that I find myself learning is the importance of grieving.
The the first time I remember experiencing grief was at 16, when my older sister passed away with cancer. I always pictured grieving as a two or three day process and then everything would go back to normal. How wrong was I. Almost four years later and I am still grieving. The truth is I still think about Hadassah all the time. A few nights ago I cried listening to the same songs that I cried to when she passed.
The Lord has brought so much healing into my life. But going through healing does not mean that grieving stops. The Lord has shown me that being emotional does not mean being unhealthy. Grieving does not make you unhealthy. The Lord has used grief in my life so that I may become more reliant on him everyday. Instead of putting it all on my self I get to give it to the Father that loves me more than anyone else. Everyday is an opportunity to die to myself and live for him. And WOW I have been able to walk in so much freedom.
The Father has been so good to me in this season. Living in a community who are so hungry to learning new things about the Lord is one of the most life giving things parts of this season. I am so thankful for what the Lord is doing in my life and the people around me.
