Last night I was chatting with one of my squad mates and had an eye opening moment I feel needs to be shared.
I am not perfect. Satan has been flooding my mind with lies of my self-worth since I came back from training camp. The biggest one is “I’m not ‘Christian enough’ to be doing this.” I have always struggled with the religious stigma that you have to be a perfect person to be a Christian. The truth is, being a Christian and believing in Jesus doesn’t change you living in sin necessarily. Every single person will struggle with worldly desires and actions, however as a Christian and by proclaiming that Jesus is Lord, we receive never-ending forgiveness. This means when we sin, ask for forgiveness and strive to not sin again, though we will sin daily, God forgives us 100%.
I am a sinner, just like everyone else. I am no greater than those reading this, your neighbor, or the cashier at your favorite store. I simply felt called to go serve in this specific way for God. What I am doing is no greater than raising your children up in the word, going to church on Sunday or loving your enemy.
The issue I have been having when I tell people about what I am doing, a small voice in my head says, “They know your sins and know you aren’t good enough to be doing this.” I have to remind myself with the question of “WHO IS?!” Who is good enough to go and be the hands and feet of Jesus? Even the 12 disciples were sinners who doubted, stumbled and lied.
This led me to write this today. I wanted to clarify with the world, I am not perfect and I never will be but this does not define me. I will always make mistakes and it is through Jesus Christ that I am washed clean every day. This may be a confusing concept to some. Just know that if you truly try your best and get up when you fall, you are enough.
