So, here we are in the Atlanta airport waiting to go to India. Our flight leaves at 10:45pm and it’s not even noon yet. This will be the first of many hours and days we will spend sitting on the floor at the airport. I’m savoring this cold tile because I have a feeling most of the airports will not be this nice.
We just wrapped up launch and I must say, it’s quite surreal to be reunited with my squad and actually doing this thing I’ve been telling everybody about since my application was accepted nine short months ago. On my last weekend at my job, a lady I work with asked me if I was ready for this trip. A thousand emotions went through my head in that split second; am I ready? Probably not. Do I have enough money? Absolutely not. The only response I could muster was, “Whether I’m ready or not, it’s happening, soooo…” I walked away questioning if I was ready for this journey. I started thinking about all the things I may or may not run into, how I could possibly fit all of my worldly possessions into 2 backpacks, how I would get along with my team, and finally, should I even be doing this in the first place?
Every time I get nervous or have doubts I have to remember when God told me to “Go” in my car on the way to my communication class nine months ago. On top of that, during an intimate moment of worship at training camp, when I was having doubts about whether or not I was ready to abandon everything I’ve ever known to go serve the Lord, He told me in the clearest voice, “I have prepared you for this journey.” This is the God I serve. A God who doesn’t want His child to be confused, a Father who wants His son to have peace about the direction in which he is heading. How could I not follow that loving voice?
Whether or not I feel prepared, every struggle I’ve ever faced, God has redeemed. He has brought me to this moment of complete surrender to His will for my life. No matter how much I try, I have placed myself in a position where I can’t run anymore. I can’t hide anymore. It’s one of the most uncomfortable, best feelings I’ve ever had in my life. To know that I’m not going to be the same after this. This fact used to be daunting, however, now I feel nothing but excitement and expectation of the work God is going to do in my heart.
I can’t tell you how grateful I am for you. Yes, YOU, my readers and supporters, for making this crazy dream a reality. I literally couldn’t do it without you. This $11,407 which has been donated thus far blows my mind. It has brought me to this airport and in a few hours, my flight to Turkey, then eventually, India and beyond. Your generosity is what has made it possible for me to start the journey that will change me forever. The start of a new chapter of me becoming the man whom God has called me to be. Over the next 11 months I will truly understand what it means to abandon myself, my desires, my plans, my comfort, and my life to follow after Christ. Love y’all. Thank you for making this possible.
