Only 95 day until launch!!!
Right now that seems like forever away not only through time but also through finances. To be completely honest I’m starting to get discouraged with fundraising. I feel like every time I have a great idea it does not work. My efforts are just crashing to the floor over and over again. Making me loss hope each day that passes and no steps closer to my final goals.
I’ve been trying to figure out if this is really what God wants for my life right now? Or do I want it for myself? I think back to this past August-October when God made me some very clear images of what this would be like and how He would uses me for His kingdom. He made the path clear through answering unspoken prayers, through being accepted by Adventures in Missions without even a voice-to-voice interview. I simply was told that they had not doubts about adding me to the team. These are clear images that I’m walking the path that has been designed for me.
But it’s hard to walk a path that no one is on. People pop up on the side of the path and ask what are you doing, and I holler back saying I’m going where Jesus lead me. Then just as quickly as these people popped up along the path they disappear. Once again I’m alone of the path of the unknown.
I never expect people to fully understand why I’m leaving the comforts of this country to go live where there is danger, illness, and so much more. But to my Family and Friends who call themselves Christians, I expect you to understand that this trip is way more then just about going over seas for a year. It’s about doing what we are called to do as Christians. Time after time Jesus commands His people to care for the orphans, the sick, and the old. He also tells His people to leave their earthly possession and follow Him (Luke 18:22).
He also gives us many more directions too:
“You are to find me in the least of these” (Matthew 25:45)
“You are to love and serve the Lord God with all your heart and love your neighbor as yourself” (Mark12:30-31)(Luke 10:27)
“You are to go and make disciples of all nations”(Matthew 28:19)
“You are to entertain strangers and lepers and tax collectors”
“You are to show mercy” (Matthew 5:7)
These are the things I want to do. I want to love others, to care for the people who the world would say aren’t good enough. To love people who have never been loved. For many people these are thing they can do and still stay in the U.S. For me the life I’ve always known distracts me. Being able to relate to someone who has nothing is imposable if I still have everything. I feel the Lord is asking me to abandon the comforts of life and learn to love and live like He once did.
So even when the road gets hard I know one thing will keep me pushing on and that is Jesus. The one who came before me and the one who will be long after. I’m resting in the peace that He has a divine plan for my life.
