The Month I fell in Love
When I signed up for the race I never thought I could fall in love. For me love was a super weird thing and I never knew how I was going to be able to accept it. Or even how to fully love someone in return. Even just letting people give me a hug was weird and awkward for me. I also thought that I wasn’t worthy of anyone’s love. Everyone dreams of the day the fall in love with someone. It’s a very special moment. This month in Cambodia I found true love.
I’m not writing to give you a sappy love story about me and some foreign dude. No… That’s not the kind of love I’m talking about. It’s the kind of love where every day you experience it, it’s overflowing. I was able to find this kind of love in Cambodia. The first few days being here I was very careful and distant about showing a ounce of love or even cuddling with the kids. God told me to let them in and show them the love that they needed. I slightly freaked out a little bit and thought to myself “What if I don’t know how to love them well? What if I’m awkward about how I show them love?” There were so many what ifs. About the third day I decided to listen to God. After I started cuddling and showing these kids love, my whole perspective changed. It wasn’t awkward or weird for me. I was able to fill up the love tank of the kids and they were able to fill mine up. As days went by I started having so much joy doing this ministry and being with the orphans. There hasn’t been a day where I haven’t smiled or laughed. I am pretty sure this is the happiest I’ve ever been on the race. My love for these kids has grown so much and I can’t contain it. I’ve also fallen in love with the culture… Even though it’s freakin HOT!
What if I hadn’t listened to God? Man I would of missed out on so much joy and love! I would still be the same girl who looks at love in a weird and awkward way. I wouldn’t of been able to accept love in the future. I can now say with confidence that I can accept love and feel loved and not be awkward about it! I absolutely love hugs!
This month has been my most favorite month. God knew exactly what he was doing when I was called on the race. For those of you who don’t know, I’ve always wanted to work in a orphanage because I have a passion for the kids. Since being here it’s been confirmed that I will be working in a ministry in the future that has to do with a orphanage.
I am so sad to leave Cambodia. These kids really have such a special place in my heart. I also know that I can always come back. So that makes the goodbye slightly easier. Not completely easy though. I have felt at home here.
I am asking for you to pray for these kids. They are from the ages of three to eighteen. They are in need of some new clothes and sponsors. Pray for their walks with the Lord. Pray for our host Vandy and his family.
Thank you all so much for your prayers and support!
