Sometimes during the day, or early morning hours, I go and sit at this beautiful quiet pond on my campus and listen to music, write, or just simply sit still and observe what’s going on around me. It’s a moment in time I can intimately spend with Jesus. Sometimes I listen, sometimes I pray, and sometimes I simply wait on Jesus.
One of my favorite go-to songs during these moments is “Oceans” by Hillsong United;
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior”
I often found myself wondering in these precious moments of time alone with Jesus if I really had a faith that would lead me “where my trust is without borders.” Am I right where God wants me? Am I willing to surrender everything to him, and allow him to use me in whichever way he sees fit to bring glory to the Kingdom? Could I really just get up and follow Jesus wherever he called me? I wondered if I even came close to emulating Jesus and his disciples by staying where I was; living my comfortable safe life, with just a bit of intimacy with Jesus a few times a week. I started craving a deeper intimacy with Jesus and prayed that the Holy Spirit would do a work in my heart. I prayed that Jesus would actually “Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander…”
As this conviction grew in my heart, I had already known and felt that the Lord was calling me to missions, and if I’m being honest, it was scary! And if I’m being brutally honest, I tried to ignore it! I wanted to take a “practical route”, and pretend like God was actually wrong in asking me to take this amazing leap of faith right into his arms (and low and behold he was right, DUH). I knew abandoning my plans would be uncomfortable and scary, but I also know that growing in a more intimate relationship with Jesus will be the ultimate gift, most lasting joy, and deepest satisfaction.
When I was accepted to the World Race, I knew that this was what God had planned for all along. I know that God has not only asked me to go on the race to serve and invest in his people all over the globe who desperately need his restorative love, but he also wants me (and all of us in fact) to depend on him totally for everything! He desires for all of his children to depend on him for love, affection, affirmation, and truth; to have a love inside of us that overflows, and a joy that meets the needs of others.
