After having one of the worst weeks I’ve had in a while, I decided to go see The War Room. My Mom had been talking about it and I figured a movie about God doing powerful things was just what I needed.
Let me tell you. That movie is incredible. My heart has been guarded and iced over when it comes to falling in love, because I’m so scared of being hurt the way my Father has hurt me. So I just guard my heart and claim I don’t believe in love. (Don’t listen to me, I believe in love. I’m a hopeless romantic.) After watching the movie, I’ve realized that putting ice on my heart is just letting the devil win. The devil wants me to be cold and guarded towards someone who might be my one. So last night, I prayed. I cried. I screamed. I began the process of melting the ice on my heart. Unfortunately, it’s not like when you defrost a car window and the ice melts fairly quickly. No, this is years of unreturned phone calls, ignored text, lies, unfullfilled promises, making me think I had my Dad back and then leaving. But drip by drip, my heart is becoming warm again.
I realized through this movie, that I’ve been selfish with my prayers. Very little do I pray for someone with as much umph as I pray for myself. That should not be how it is done! I should be praying for others just as much, if not more, than I pray for myself. I started with that theory by praying for my Father. I prayed that he finds his way back to God and that he realizes his past mistakes and fixes them. (For real this time…)
This one is not so much from the movie itself as it is from the music playing in the background. One of the songs played was “Crazy Faith” by John Waller, this song hit me hard. Like, woah. YES! Crazy Faith, that is what I need to be a missionary! I need CRAZY FAITH. I need the belief that I can do this despite all odds despite having to raise a large amount of money, despite my depression, despite my fear, I need crazy faith. There’s a world out there that deserve to hear God’s name, they deserve to become Christians and go to Heaven. But with the world they live in, it’s not as easy as we want to believe. That’s where my team comes in, we’re a team of doers, of believers, of crazy faithers. We know we are going to do this, and we know that through God, we are going to change some peoples’ world’s. All because we have crazy faith.
So basically, go watch The War Room. It’s a beautiful movie that will leave you feeling like you need to create a prayer room in your closet.
