It’s hard to believe that I’ve been home for almost a month now and it has been well over a month since I have even attempted to write a blog. The past few weeks have been filled with a smattering of family events intermingled with the visits from my sweet nephew and catching up with old friends.
People have asked me how being home has been. And the answer I give is, relatively normal. The moment my feet landed on Midwestern soil, it seemed as though I entered back into the life that I left eleven months ago- like my stint on the World Race was a commercial break from the television series of my American life. It has been wonderful to be home surrounded by people who love me unconditionally while enjoying things that I took for granted a year ago like a bed, alone time, and Target. But these new memories at home have been marked by an undercurrent of an emotion that I haven’t felt in a really long time.
Discontentment.
A sense of restlessness, as my friend Webster puts it. I started to feel this gnawing in my spirit back in March when I was in the Dominican Republic. I had a feeling that although my time was wrapping up on the World Race, the journey wasn’t over- that there was more. And since I’ve been home, that sense of incompleteness and restlessness has resurfaced.
It’s interesting because we tend to think of discontentment as an ungodly character trait, but there is a godly side of it. The discontent soul knows that something is wrong deep down inside. It knows that hole many have referred to: the God-shaped vacuum in every human heart. And no matter how much it tries to fill that hole with pleasure, work, people, or things, the vacuum remains. It was carved out for God and only God can make it whole.
I’ve sought the Lord in this state of discontentment and have heard His call. I’m pleased to announce that God is calling me back out onto the mission field this fall! This coming October, I have the opportunity of launching with another squad serving as a squad leader. In this position, I will be pouring into and investing in World Racers as my main form of ministry. I am blessed to be able to walk alongside a squad of around 40 young adults for 5 months traveling to 5 different countries and intentionally discipling them.
Like my own trip, I will be raising support for this opportunity. To stay on the field for 5 full months, I will need to raise around $6,500. If you’re interested in supporting me financially as I reenter the field, click on the “Support Me” tab on the left hand side. Thanks!
