God is good and He is faithful.
So the above sentence took me five seconds before I was about to say something else. But because it’s true that He is good and He is always faithful, I just said it again.
Lately I’ve been feeling confused, overwhelmed, and weak and vulnerable. I was tempted so many times to look to things other than God, and I fell into the temptation so many times. Pretty much in the past 2 to 3 weeks, I felt like a mess. I probably cried the most frequently this past month and yet I still feel stuck. It’s weird. I’m learning more about myself in a difficult and poignant way, which is something I’ve never gone through or experienced. But God is at work.
He is molding me and pruning me, which is a process that looks like taking what I have right now and either bending it or completely cutting it off, which hurts. I’ve revisited and talked about old memories the most in these past few weeks and felt very uncomfortable, uncomfortable because they brought pains that I’ve subconsciously been hiding and avoiding. As much as I want to look forward and have hope, I actually did not forget and forgive the things of my past and have been carrying them with me all along.
This is the time when He’s calling me to make peace with myself. I have to let go, be honest, and let Him take care of me and comfort me. This is true, I am weak and imperfect, and He is strong and so perfect.
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Man, this World Race thing is crazy, aka I…don’t know what I got myself into. Pray for me guys! I need your prayers (ask God what to pray for me and pray it please ><)
…btw, the title holds no profound meaning besides the fact that they are the places I went to after church today. Dude, living comfortably uncomfortable is pretty difficult in the OC, all the dilemmas and temptations. #struggssoreal
