I don’t even know where to start about training camp. It was 10 days of no personal space and very little personal time. These 10 days was spiritually, emotionally, and physically draining. We had to use porta potties which 250 other people had to use so you can imagine how awful this was after awhile. We had to take bucket showers or no shower at all. Since we were in north Georgia the hills are no joke. I can tell you my legs got a work out every day. Of course all of this was in the middle of July and it was hot and humid all day every day. So hot that when I took a bucket shower I was still sweating as I’m struggling to pull clothes back on. BUT all of that said I wouldn’t change it for a minute. In those 10 days I got to meet 35 people who became family in such a short time. We got placed in our small team (Team Serendipity) who we will be doing ministry with and living with for at least 5 months. I’m really excited about this team of people. We are an eclectic group to say the least. I’m so excited to see what God is going to do through us!
Most importantly God showed me some things I needed to change in my life. I realized I had unforgiveness in my heart which had created bitterness. I didn’t realize I still harbored unforgiveness for people who hurt me in the past. I learned that I had to forgive them even though I never got an apology. Most importantly I prayed for those who hurt me that their lives would be blessed. This was by far the hardest thing to do but the most needed. The weight of letting go of that unforgiveness was life changing. The bitterness that I had let come in my life caused more harm than I thought. Now I have more peace and joy.
God also showed me that I had shame that I carried from past sins. I knew as a Christian that God had forgiven me for those sins but the enemy was using my shame against me. I carried that weight around thinking I could never escape my past that my family and friends always saw what I use to be. I realized that isn’t the case but the enemy in my head.
God is so good! I’m so excited to start this journey with some amazing people and can’t wait to see what God is going to do through W squad. Please keep my squad and my team in your prayers!
