“Failure to prepare is preparing to fail” -John Wooden
It has been almost 4 months since i applied and was accepted to The World Race. it has been a long process to get to even this point(or at least feels like it). Applying, getting accepted, getting my support letter done, getting my passport, getting all my gear…all while still trying to go about my daily life. It’s tiring and difficult.
Anyone who knows me well could tell you that im not a multitasker. Never have been. I’m usually the guy that that is daydreaming or chasing butterflies, finding umimportant things so much more interesting then they actually are or should be. This also doesn’t help the fact that i am a procrastinator with a capital P(some could argue all caps).
i often thought like this sometimes:
I have a bad habit of thinking that the more time i have the more time i think i can waste( with launch being so far away i can see and feel myself slipping into that mind frame already) and it gets me into trouble. It happend in high school with my first job. i was late constantly. not a 30 or 45 minutes kind of late. but usually a few minutes, 10 at the most(which is worst than 30 -45 mins). i knew what the problem was, i constantly beat myself up for doing it, constantly told myself i wasn’t going to do it anymore and then immediately get over it and move on. Sometimes its a motivational issue, if i think its going to be difficult, uncomfortable, or annoying( work, school, etc) i tend to put it off as long as possible. To wait until i absolutely have to. Bordem plays a role too. Hence the daydreaming and chasing butterflies.
But with an oppertunity like this, Being called to go by God himself…i feel guilty, lazy, even ashamed at times. That God’s work takes a back seat to watching tv and playing video games. Focused on distractions than the work infront of me. Being unprepared….
so what does God have to say about all this?…
In Eph. 4:1 Paul writes “…I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received”
In chapter 5:15-17 he also writes “be very careful then how you live, not as unwise but wise, making the most of every opportunity, because days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lords will is.”
Col 3:23 says “Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men”
I think its pretty clear what needs to happen. not just for the race but for my life in general.
Please pray for me. Pray that i would find motivation and enthusiasum in Him. That I would work daily as if i was working for Him, that my life would be worthy of the calling God has called me too. That i would seize every oppertunity He lays infront of me. for clarity of His will for me as it guides my every step.
thanks for reading
