What made me feel alive this month?
Praying boldly up and down the residents’ halls. Commanding the enemy to leave this place. Praying with my team out on the farm and singing the doxology amidst all the confusion and hurt.
What was difficult this month? Why was it difficult?
Wrapping my head around the pain going on inside me. It’s hard for me to process, but so freeing when I finally let it out. It’s difficult for me to surrender and trust. It takes heroic courage to trust when I can’t understand anything. But I’m still trying to each day.
What broke my heart this month? Why did it break my heart?
It broke my heart to see the many troubles here at Eden. Martha’s stomach pain, the old man falling daily, the pigs getting stolen, Fuze’s seizures, Miniti leaving, Robin’s hopelessness… all so heart burdening. It hurts me because I want this ministry to be blessed for their obedience. They are and will be, but seeing these trials discouraged me.
“So let go my soul and trust in Him– the waves and wind still know His name.”
This was our song this month. “It is Well with My Soul” by Bethel Music.
