This month I felt inadequate and weak. I’ve felt like I’m not enough and I’ve learned that I don’t have to be.
Most of this month I’ve really been struggling with the feeling that I’m not really making a difference, like what I’m doing isn’t enough and I’m not really helping anyone.
“Did you not prepare?” Our contact asked after we left the home of a man who left the church after having a loss in his family. He was angry at God and our contact didn’t think it was enough for us to just simply pray with Him and invite him to that evenings church service… “Maybe tomorrow you prepare? And the next day too?” (Our contact was the sweetest lady in the world and I know that her heart was in the right place in asking this) I couldn’t help but make a joke out of the situation, it really was kind of funny. But on the inside I asked myself, “Was it really not enough? Am I not doing enough?”
Later that night the same man came to the evening service. When I saw him sitting across from me I felt God reminding me that I need to trust Him to complete the work. All I can do is plant a seed and trust… With God it’s enough.
I’m trusting that what we did in Huanuco has made a difference, even if we didn’t see immediate effect. We didn’t love on orphans, heal the sick, visit prisons or help the homeless… But we did encourage God’s people and I have to trust that that is enough. God placed me here for such a time as this and He sees the big picture.
I have been so blessed by the people of Huanuco and their hospitality, whether it be endless amounts of fruitcake and worship around the table, bonfires and s’mores or being invited back the next day for breakfast so that we can try guinea pig, I’ve been overwhelmed by the kindness of the people here. God is good and He blessed me with a family in Peru when I was missing my own family the most.
I felt at home and was involved in all the same ministries as I am at my home church and it was great to lead worship and work with the kids and teenagers.
This month was full of weird, but delicious food, strong hugs, miscommunications and fun memories. We marched for peace, played David and Goliath, sat through endless amounts of church services, were in a flash mob and gave our testimonies in Spanish. I’m thankful for our time in Peru and for the people that we interacted with.
Thank you everyone for your prayers, support and encouragement over this last month. If you feel lead, please help me continue on this journey by making a donation! Like, comment, share!
Bendiciones,
Raquel
