Seriously.
I would like to say that I understand the kindness, provision and abundance from the Lord. But I’m learning, He has much more to teach me about His Kingdom.
I’ve been a Christian for most of my life, and since my young toddler days, I have always believed that the Lord is good, kind and takes care of His children like the Good Father He promises He is.
I have also learned as the years have collected, that I more often than not do not feel worthy of His kindness and provision.
Over the past few years, fundraising has been a part of my normal routine. To say I never doubt myself, or wrestle with recruiting supporters year after year would be a complete lie. Although I love the fact that I cannot do this job and build the Kingdom based on my own sweat and hard work, I have found my pride gets so often in the way of me choosing to invite people into the partnership of working alongside me.
I never want to be a burden. Probably because somewhere deep down, I don’t believe I’m worth it.
I know the race is worth it. I know the impact we get to have in people’s lives is LIFE changing. I know the Lord shows up, does crazy things, changes hearts, calls out Sons & Daughters and the Kingdom is advanced, pruned and thriving. I know I’m a part of it too!
But sometimes, my faith in the Lord doesn’t quite reach to my belief in myself.
So, honest and raw, from the bottom of my heart I am blown away by the kindness, provision and blessings from each of you who have supported me. I have and may never understand the way you choose me, of all people, to rally around, but I’m grateful. Time and time again, through your relentless belief in my work and what I do, I remember that the Lord, and each of you, believes I’m worth it.
WORTHINESS. Such a tough lesson, but one that your overwhelming blessing continues to remind me of.
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THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU WHO DONATED TO ME IN THE PINCH OF 48 HOURS!
I am officially funded for 2017, and you have already made a dent in year 2018.
I cannot express my thanks in enough words. May the Lord bless you more richly for your sacrifice towards me!
UPDATE FROM INDIA:
5 more days of life here before we head to Nepal for debrief and get the squad set up for month two. This month they have been working with pastors of local village churches. The hospitality shown among the believers who have nothing more than small huts and odd jobs has reflected the kindness and abundant blessing you all have shown me. Time after time, when our teams go to villages to pray, share testimonies of the gospel and spread the name of Jesus as the only true God in a nation founded on hundreds of beliefs, the receptiveness and endless meals, chai tea and invitations to sit in their homes has been humbling. I have learned much about honor here, and how Paul talks in his letters about the church sharing and covering the needs of one another.
It’s beautiful.
All the love,
Kaylaynn
