I can’t believe I actually get to say this, but it really is almost over. This week is my final week for clinicals, lectures, and sim lab. I am that much closer to becoming a real live nurse AND real live human being again!!! The journey was long and arduous and there is NO WAY I could have done this without a special someone… His name… Jesus! He showed me how completely inadequate I truly am during these years through nursing school. How much that I needed to rely on Him and not on myself, because when I did, that feeling of doom arose deep inside me after every test. Did I pass? Am I going to continue? Should we just move to Africa now? These are the type of questions I kept asking myself, but God would just sit me down and calmly reassure me that He has a plan for my life and regrettably this is it right now. Ha.
But I praise His name for getting me this far! It almost seems impossible, but then again I think of the God that I serve and it doesn’t seem that far fetched. It really is incredible though. Last semester was by far my hardest semester. I came so close to failing, and I just want to go ahead and apologize to my wife for having to put up with me, and to God for failing His tests as well. I did finally learn my lesson though. (I’m not a complete cotton-headed ninny muggin) And of course God has held my hand and walked me through everything. All the while graciously giving me encouragement and knowledge to help me pass those crazy tests.
He is the one we need to rely on! Not ourselves. No matter how capable we think we are…. WE ARE NOT! We fail miserably time and time again, but that is the amazing thing about God. He never gives up on us. We can never fail too many times where God just throws up His hands and says, “That’s it! I’m done with that one! I’ve given him so many chances to over come, but he just falls right back into the same sin! I can’t take it anymore.” I thank God that this is not the case, because I think of my life and my weaknesses and I would have been done away with years ago. Yet instead of anger and frustration He shows us grace, love, kindness, mercy, long suffering, all because He loves us and cherishes us and wants a closer relationship with us. Don’t we serve a GREAT God?!
