I wasn’t surprised by the question. In fact, I had kind of been expecting it since Vietnam.
Will you be a Squad Leader?
Hearing it out loud though, for the first time, was both riveting and yet so weighty. All I could do was sit there with my eyes closed, wanting to just stay in this small world that I was creating for myself. As soon as I opened my eyes, I would have to face reality. Thinking back and laughing about it, they actually had to ask me to open my eyes again. Literally.
For the few hours that I had to pray and ponder the question, I was probably more busy on that day than I had been in a while. I didn’t have time to go sneak off to my room and be by myself and spend time praying over the question. It’s almost like the Lord was preventing me from being by myself and preventing me from being still.
No.
I don’t want it. I mean, I want it…but I don’t think this is the right position for me to be in right now. This isn’t what I want. I don’t even think that this is what God wants. Then He answered me.
Quit asking if this is the position you need to be in, and start asking if this is the position that other people need you to be in.
It’s actually really annoying sometimes how good the Lord is at discourse.
Yes.
Almost immediately, the Lord started speaking to me in drastically different ways. I feel like I am a new person, quickly molded and perfectly reshaped. I will be Squad Leading with two awesome co-leaders. Mary Timaeus and Katie Stoddard. This season is not only going to grow us closer to the Lord, but closer with each other. I’m excited for us to grow in our weaknesses, thrive off of our strengths, and reinforce one another in our potential. It won’t be easy. It wasn’t easy when I was only leading a team of six people, and it definitely won’t be easy leading a squad of fifty.
Everything about me is not a Squad Leader, but everything about Christ in me is a Squad Leader.
As I walk into this new season of leading our squad, please be in prayer for guidance and wisdom for myself and my co-leaders.
Still, I need financial support. I am still in need of roughly $4,000 by the end of December. Please be praying about financially partnering with me, and if there is anybody that you know that might be interested in either prayer or financial support, please encourage them to visit my blog, and contact me.
Especially during this season, I would really enjoy hearing from you. There is a ‘Contact Me’ link on the left of this blog. Let me know if these blogs have been an encouragement to you, and any ways or areas where I can be praying for you.
God Bless!
