Going into Month 6 debrief The Lord was preparing me for change. I didn't know what that meant or looked like but I knew team Favoured would not be the same. As we walked into our debrief meeting and sat down we were told at this moment team Favoured is being dissolved and will no longer exists for the rest of the race. As we sat there a little stunned and speechless it took us all a few moments to actually let the words go from our ears, to our brains, then to actually comprehending what was actually said. We then began to verbally process what was told to us and while this was happening The Lord was speaking to me.
(Before the race started The Lord said to me that we were a team that He was going use in big ways and that we would finish well together. My pray for the team since the beginning was that we would learn to love each other and feel loved.)
During the meeting He told me that He had answered my prayers and that we had finished well. We learned to loved each other for who they are. We were told that we were known as the team that loved each other and loved well even in the messy parts and that we were not being dissolved for any reason besides that it was logistically the easiest way to do it. They said that we should be proud to be an example to other teams of how to be a family and love each other in the good and bad times to push each other and encourage each other. We were a healthy team with conflict, laughs, and love.
Hearing this did not make me feel any better because to me why would you break up a good thing if it works why break it?… The Lord caught me in my thoughts and then began to speak to me again and say that it only took us 6months not 11 months to achieve what He had for us. He showed me that what He told me was true and that this would be family but that He now needed to use us separately for a greater purpose. What I thought was suppose to be the whole 11 months together was my understanding not His own.
At the end if the meeting we were told that we would not know our team for the next 4 days and that we had this time together but that we were no longer a team. As we walked out of the room a flood of emotions fell over me… I was sad, comforted that my prayers were answered, and scared for the unknown. That night after worship we prayed as a team for one last time under the stars just like we began at training camp. This was an awesome and serial moment as this chapter in my life closed and a new door was about to be opened in 4 days…
The 4 days of limbo was what we all needed … The Lord knew that we needed it to not only slowly say goodbye but also to just be ourselves. To love, laugh, play, and just enjoy each others company in every way. Team Favoured was somethinbt special and our name was fulfilled in many ways through our lives separately and together. We shared life together day in and out for 6 months and still wanted to be around each other. I know The Lord allowed us these 4 days because if they would've told us we had to be on our new teams that day we probably would've gone kicking and screaming with a grudge. (well at least I would've) My Daddy is so good!
As the days passed I started to think about what team I would want to be on and stated to pray about it. When the big day came it was a surreal moment and The Lord once again answered my prayer. I am now on my new team that I had prayed for called Blessed Longing. I have enjoyed the past couple of weeks with my new team. I have learned already so much from them and have gotten to share a lot of my passions with them. I look forward to growing and learning from them as my new journey continues.
It has been hard not being around the faces I have grown so accustomed to day and night. However, I know The Lord's hand is in all of it and I know now that it is what I needed even before I knew I needed a change.
I am becoming more and more grateful for my Daddy's provision and protection of my emotions, feelings, and needs the more I step back and see with His eyes in every situation. He knew I needed this new team for my new season even before I did and aligned it all up so I could step into new confidence, understanding, and growth!
Thank you Daddy for knowing what I need before I do.
